I love interacting with people and with children so I am having kind of a hard time sitting still at a desk. Anyone that knows me from college knows that I can't sit in one spot for very long. My friends and I have had many good conversations and fun times during our breaks from homework, which basically consisted of leaving the library and walking around campus for five minutes before returning to the libary. Within a two hour period I could have had at least two walks/breaks in. However, I do love that my work at the church serves a specific purpose and is heading towards a specific goal in reaching out to the children and families in the Waukesha area. Everything I do has purpose/meaning behind it so no task is just busy work, although at times I will admit it does feel like it is. Right now, I am just adjusting to a new environment. I wanted a new experience and I definately found one. God has been amazing through and in this all. Everyday I am continuing to learn new things about Him.
For instance, I often wonder you know where God is going to lead me and what His will is for my life, but the answer is that I already know. Yes, I might not know the specifics but as long as I am loving Him, loving others, and servingeverything is going to be okay. I don't have to keep wondering where God is going to lead me or what might happen next because if I lose my selfishness and find myself completely made alive in Him than I already know what His will is for my life. It is in the ordinary every day life that His Will can be seen. It doesn't matter where I am or who I am with as long as my relationship and heart is right with God. The only thing that we are given is today this moment, we are not promised tomorrow.
"Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes." - James 4:13-14
I have been thinking a lot about the future and worrying about the future because nothing seems completely clear what is going to happen or where I will be. However, I know the only thing that matters is the here and now. I am loving God, loving others, and serving with all of my heart.
